Inlove with the Wrong Guy... Hmmm...

My 2nd year college, 2nd semester. I wanted to have a relationship so I looked for ways that I will be able to have one. Well, there was a tv program that shows text messages from people looking for textmates. I found one that interested me with his post because what he was looking for described me (age, complexion, education in...). I messaged him because he posted his number there and I was really very happy that he replied back! Wow... Let's name my textmate J. We became constant textmates, he sends me load for my cellphone most of the time because he said that will give me no reason not to message him everyday. Well, that was ok and I will text him even he will not send me texts though. One night, we decided we will meet the next day. And so we did. I was very happy to have met J, he looked great in a polo shirt even just with shorts in the bottom of it. I aked him to go with me in my house and meet my family. Luckily, he knows my brother who was going to the same school with him. Then I felt we were really very connected with each other. Well, one day J asked me if we are already in a relationship... I threw back the question to him, he said YES! Wow, I felt very very happy! At long last, I am in a relationship, and I am inlove! That was in my 2nd year, 2nd semester... J went to my school to pick me up so I introduced him to my classmates and friends. THey were very nice to him but the next day in school, my classmates were very honest to me that they don't like him. For some reasons they cannot tell me why because they just said "instinct." I disagreed! I went on relationship with J even not my friends approving it. I told myself, "my family likes him, that's more important." Things seemed to be ok when things gradually change. J asks me to give him money, he asks me that we go somewhere and it's my treat and what's worse, he forces me even to go in for a "short time" somewhere! That helped my losing my scholarship, being involved with J and his gestures. I was ok with it until my 3rd year... I failed my 3rd year college 1st semester because I let him rule me. I was blaming him for everything, but I was wrong, I need to blame myself! And my classmates and friends are RIGHT! I realized it was a wrong thing to just allow J and agree with J all the time with what he wants me to do, I felt stupid! I was like a dog following him for a food! One day, he asked me for money and told him that my parents lost their job and got no money for myself even... He got angry! And guess what he did to me... He kicked me in my legs at the park and choked me with lots of people seeing us! Goodness. My family knew about it since somebody told us about it and I told them we were just playing around, they doubted it and made some distance to J from then. I was really ready to forgive J with what happened when someone texted me and said that she's the wife of J. She was asking if I knew where J was because there kid is out of milk. Terrible! What do you think I felt that time? I felt very mad and very sorry. I texted J that I quit with our relationship and never to text me but he was already outside my house when I texted him. So we talked about it, and to my being stupid and being a fool, I still continued my relationship with him... as a MISTRESS...