My Light, My Hope

I failed my 3rd year 1st semester in the nursing course. Well, that was it for me. The first person I texted when I failed was a classmate, a guy classmate. He courted me in my 2nd year 1st semester, but I rejected him because of how he looks and his complexion, he is dark. J was light brown and my classmate is dark brown. But I wondered why he was the 1st person I informed I failed. Let's call my classmate by the name F. F was the 1st person who comforted me too when everybody knows by then that I failed. He had a girlfrend by then. One day, F texted me that he wanted to continue courting me again and will be stopping his relationship with his girlfriend because of me. SO he broke up with her and continued courting me. In my thoughts, I'm just gonna use F to make J stop texting me and disturing me all the time because I already have a boyfriend. I said "YES" to F and he was very happy when we were already having relationship. My family was still doubting me and don't trust me yet. I asked F to come with me at home so my family can meet him and introduced him as my boyfriend. They laughed at me silently and didn't approved what I told them, I know that because of how the way they looked at me and F. They did respect F and accommodated him as if he's a family. Of course lots of interview, but yeah, at least I found way to put into ther minds that there is no J and ME. F visits me all the time in my house and helps me with the books and everything so I can start some reviews in repeating my 3rd year 1st semester. My family found it nice and eventually they accepted that I have a boyfriend. Of course, they don't trust me yet. But I was really happy that somehow they recognized it that I was telling the truth. My plan came to reality. J was texting me again and asking me to continue our relationship. I told him that I already have a boyfriend and I am happy now, much happier than being with him, and he got mad. H texted nasty things and I even let F read it. F told me he'll call J and will just confirm what I was texting him is true. But before he called, J CALLED! And so F answered it and just told him to stop texting me and bothering me. J never said anything according to F, he was just listening so F put down the phone. And that was it. Whew! Next day, I asked my mom that F and I will watch a movie, she said ok but she wants F to ask permission too. I told her yes he will, I just told you ahead so you know and I already have asked permission. So F asked permission not only to my mom but also to my dad. Wow, it felt great. I never have experienced that with J. When we were watching Pirates of the Carribean movie, J texted asking for money because they have no food he said. I replied back to him, "why don't you ask money to your wife and to your girlfriends out there? I don't have relationship with you anymore. Stop texting. Bye." He replied with nasty words! I just never replied back so he'll stop too. Soon enough, I told myelf, I will be able to learn to love F, but right now, I am sticking to what I planned.